23 May 2010

The Dreadful Slope of Dreams

Climbing a hill has to be done slowly, so every bit of stench and fragrance, every bit of movement and stillness, every bit of sound and silence, every bit of smoothness and itching can be taken in without any hindrance. Most of the times when we start something we run, we are in a hurry. We want to finish it fast and get to the top. We want to scratch ourselves deep, stress ourselves fully, and sit down panting. The feeling is exhilarating and amazing.
But, when we sit back we start realizing that we missed so much on our way and made so many mistakes and probably even broke a few bones. We need to try it once more. If it is only one ride we have, ride it slowly and steadily. So, when we fall we don't break our heads and start digging deeper holes. It is a search for isolation in my dreams. An isolation which pulls everything closer!

Charles Bukowksi says: 
"If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is." 
[Poem - Roll the Dice] [Last Dialogue from the film: Factotum]

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